
Marina Marina
my angel
the sun shines in your eyes...
Marina was my first friend in San Fransico.
She rented me my tiny second story studio on O'Farrel Street in the infamous Tenderloin.
She was working for the Realtor, working her first "big girl job" in that crazy colorful seven by seven mile city by the sea.
She was wearing a velour sea green blazer, flowered flats and a liguid light smile.
Her long blond hair got tangled in the sunlight.
I knew immediately I wanted to be her friend.
I had known her not 10 minutes, but after we signed the paperwork I couldn't help but give her a hug. And she hugged me back so graciously.
We went downstairs while my lover pulled the truck around the block to park, and she helped me fight off the cab and the crazy California drivers that flocked like sharks to the fresh kill of a open parking spot.
We were definitely friends then.
I cemented the deal a few days later when I wrote her a note.
"Application For Friendship"
It read,
and listed the terms.
I don't remember now what it said, but suffice to say she signed on the dotted line.
We went out to Thai food after word and ate fat noodles and kind of fell in love.
We were pretty much inseparable after that.
That was before Bobbie Sue moved from Seattle with Ben and the accompanying full cast of dark romantic comedy drama that became our life.
Via La Boheme.
At any rate, she was the only living soul besides my Jason that I knew in the Frisco Bay.
One day she showed me a little spot off the real Marina, right next to the Country Club on a little rocky outcroppig of the beach where the grass grew high and there was a stone bench with concrete tubes all around it that amplified the sounds of the surf.
We used to sit there and talk , sometimes laughing and swearing and drinking wine, and once late at night after the fog rolled in talking about lost love and her grandfather. We were both single again then.
And we drove away into the foggy night probably laughing again.
We sung a lot too, once she parked her car in front of the room I was renting on Potrero Hill. It was such a safe neighborhood, and I was drunk on whatever adventure we had just returned from, all dressed up and ready to crash,and I didn't think to lock.
She slept on my air mattress like an angel.
The next morning when it was time to go, after our cigarette looking out at the view of the tower on Telegraph hill which looked like a cathedral in the clouds from my balcony...
we went to the car. And it was broken into.
The stereo was gone.
I felt so sorry. But she wasn't angry.
And we drove from then on singing Bobby Magee instead, windows cracked with the rain beating on the windshield, keeping the beat.
We were partners in crime then, secret compatriots against the backdrop of the rest of the world. We had a following. We always knew where the party was At. We were the party.
Our crowing achievement was my 27th birthday party. We invited everyone, told everyone to dress in python skin, feather boas, big sunglasses, bring champagne, rock steady in the style of the all the dead rock stars that never saw the dawn of there 28th year.
And they came, at one point there was six people in my room, and as many bottles of champagne, feather boas and all.
There must have been 100 people there that night, and in the morning there was three whole garbage cans of empty bottles of bubbly, wine and beer...
A week later we had a much smaller party, just the two of us, our lovers, and my two house mates, a lovely young couple and two very dear friends I had met at Burning Man years before, and we split the ounce or so of pure MDMA that her tall dark and handsome had brought.
We all laid together on a mattress in the living room, covered in a plush tiger stripe blanket and pillows. There was a Buddha on the table, bedecked and surrounds entirely by candlelight and half empty wine glasses...
We laid in the light and languished...
We carried on like that merrily, taken by Ecstasy and the immediacy and transience of each glorious moment until, it was suddenly all to much, and I left them there, and stepped out alone.
There was a truth I had just come to. I hated to tell her. I was't sure if I could.
She found me sitting on the porch alone.
She asked me what was wrong, and I told her.
"I have to leave San Fransico" I said, and as soon as I did there were tears in her eyes. We cried.
She took me to the airport a few weeks of that...
Me in my suede trench with lambswool trim coat, a crocheted flower on my orange and green knit hat just over my ear, me with six or eight mismatched vintage suitcases, my easel in one hand and my heart in the other.
We sung "leaving on a jet plane" and cried some more.
And then she smiled for me, that liquid sunshine smile, hugged me close and let me go.
I 30 now,in Albuquerque now, with a different lover, now my husband. She is back in San Fransisco after various adventures a sunlit soul like her could conjure.
She is like Alice, creating wonderland wherever she steps.
The sound of ocean follows her.
Marina Marina
some day I hope to wash back on your shore shore.